Time Check

Why is it that all of a sudden, my "had-been" and some "should-have-beens" show up unexpectedly with their lady loves while the one man who has my heart is so, so far away?

Must be Father Time jolting me back to consciousness.

"Time check!..."

A Way Back Into Love

Saw the movie "Music and Lyrics" with my besty, Tin, over the weekend. Funny, relaxing movie, beautiful songs. We both loved the movie. Hugh Grant is so sexy... and he can actually sing! Whoever thought that he can pull off that role is a genius.

I like most of the songs from the movie but I'm singling out the song, "Way Back Into Love". The words mirror my thoughts.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

Gibberish

Love is oftentimes lumpy or sharp-edged. Much like the shape of the heart, one side choppy, the other side pointed.

Whatever.
That.
Means.

And it's no big deal, actually. I'm just loosing my mind. You can probably tell by what you're reading.

Do. I. Care?!?

Limn

Reflections



Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday
It's as if i play a part
Now I see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
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One day, I awoke from a deep, deep sleep and found out that all my masks were gone. I looked for them everywhere but I could not find them.

My masks! How can I go out into this world without those masks I have fashioned for most of my emotions.
I searched outside and the rays of the morning sun, high in the sky, streamed down my maskless face. I looked up in reaction and closed my eyes as its mild heat brought warmth and purpose to my being. At that moment, the most unexpected and incredible occurred, rousing my spirit. And I knew instantly that it is good.

Now, I am maskless.

I am at peace.